The Magic of Butterflies

[Tamarind the Girl]

I was attracted to living a rawsome life for many reasons. There are too many specific reasons to name, however, because each affects the whole of my being.

At the core of it all, eating raw represents an unveiling process. As my body goes through detox and purifies itself of all the poisons that have kept me sick for so long, the blanket is also being pulled off of my emotions. I used to turn to food for comfort (particularly expensive drinks and fat-laden goodies from Starbucks)! Eating heavy, warm foods settled me in a sense. But I realize now that it was a false and deceptive sense of settling. Rather, these things were SEDATING me. So as I embark upon this journey, I feel very much like my 'blankey' has been snatched away. The longer I am eating raw foods, the more raw my emotions, the more sensitive my feelings, and the more fragile I feel. But going to cooked foods for comfort is something I refuse to do!!! I'd rather push forward and learn to cope with these changes to the whole of me, not just my body, because I know this is the only way I will ever be happy. The old way did not work. I don't want it anymore.

I feel deep shifts underway, like plate techtonics, and it has only been nine days!!! The smell of cooked foods makes me sick to my stomach, my skin looks awful (eczema = release of toxins), my appetite is a fourth of what it was, I've lost 9.5 pounds, I have not once been really tempted to eat cooked foods, an ache I've had for months in the arch of my left foot has vanished seemingly overnight, my digestion has improved, and I feel lighter, among other things. Emotionally, I feel more connected to life around me, at the same time that I feel super vulnerable.

I don't see ANY of these things as problems. They are all part of the process. As with any transformation process, there are bound to be growing pains. I can't say how grateful I am to have this forum to come to for support as I transition from a cocooned being... to... a... butterfly!

Tamarind the Girl

[rawsistah]

Congratulations sweetie! Your post is an inspiration to me too :)
peace
rawsista

[LeanAndHungry]

That's awesome about the emotions and all that. I have lived my whole life until very recently(I am almost 24) downplaying my emotions and basing myself largely on logic and reason. I wasn't against emotions, I just tended to guard mine, not let anything appear to affect me all that much, good or bad. Do that long enough and you will stop feeling at all. Logic and reason are good, but emotions are much more important, especially those shared. Yes, you might leave yourself prone to be hurt, more than otherwise, but I think the potential rewards far outweigh the potential hurt.

[Tamarind the Girl]

Hi Brad,

I really like your reply, especially being a man. It seems that society sort of imposes that upon men. I think things are changing to some degree, but it's still there. So this is wonderful. Like you, my whole life has been about my mind and achievements and stuff like that. But I was at the extreme of totally being disconnected from my body as well as my emotions. As I go forward focused on my health, I realize more and more that the WHOLE of my being is important, not just what is between my ears. : )

Happy Trails,
Tamryn

[Onabreeze]

Tamarind, thank you for your inspiring words. This is exactly what people need to hear.

[yumyum]

That's a wonderful way of describing it. I know what you mean about the emotions. It is great that you see it so clearly and understand it. Good for you. :)