Hi raw friends -- it's been a while since I've been here and my body has missed it! I need to so badly go all raw again, but it isn't easy this time. First time I went raw, it was so easy. That was several years ago and I felt so good! And looked good! Oh, why did I ever eat that first cooked bite that took me off the band wagon of feeling good???

So why am I writing? I'm trying very hard to convince myself that if I committ myself (again), maybe, just maybe, I'll be true to raw. Sure wish it was that easy.

I must admit that I have maintained probably 85% raw. I managed to maintain my weight within 7-8 pounds. I stayed away from meats. I guess I didn't do too bad, but I think my body demands 100% raw. My husband supports me most of the time and has considered requiring the family to join me -- though we both know it is his thought that counts.

Sometimes I think that since I have turned 54 my body is falling apart. Within six months I find out that: 1) I have a frozen shoulder, which gets worse with treatment; 2) I get a blood clot in my leg, not my first; 3) then a mamogram reveals a spot in my breast, this one was a first. I'm beginning to think, "what's next?" Actually the doc called yesterday to let me know my pap came back with an abnormality. Come to find out, it was fine since I still have my monthly cycles. Oh, and 4) I had a nasty flu bug that hit me like a brick wall -- wondering if it was swine flu, but no, did not go check. I'm on the tail end of that roller coaster -- I hope!

So, you see, I need to get on track and take care of me!!! And for me that means all raw. (I think I am giving myself a pep talk! Believe me, I need it!)

If anyone out there has any advice, please pass it on. I'll even welcome a tongue lashing if it will convince me to get my act together.

Also need some advice on sad chocolate substitutes. I've been afraid to try the raw versions (it is rather pricey). Chocolate has been my favored treats/cheats.

Okay, I'll hush now and attempt to plan a raw supper for myself, while I get the privledge of planning supper for my family. Thanks for letting me rattle!