please oh please help
My father and I do not see eye-to-eye on a lot of things, but one of the most crucial is vegetarianism/veganism/healthy nutrition. I¬ím currently in college out of state, and I¬ím panicking about going home for the holidays.
I'm concerned about Thankgiving dinner and life in general for me at my house. Last year my dad found out that I was eating vegetarian, (I was in fact raw vegan at the time) and he reacted ina way that I find immature and totally unacceptable fro my sanity. He thought that I had an eating disorder and told all of his brothers that I did, and he literally forced me to eat meat. Now, all of my extended family who will be over for Thanksgiving will be watching me like hawks, and I'm not looking forward to that. I'm still eating raw vegan now, and have been since last summer. I wrote my dad a letter in which I mentioned that I¬íve started to eat vegan, but I was a little vague¬Ö I didn¬ít wan to freak him out.I figured that I'd get the fight over with while I was still here, but he didn't even respond, and hasn't mentioned the letter at all even though it was like two months ago. So I'm scared. I don't want to have to keep hiding the way that I eat, but I don't want to anger or provoke him too much because I'm scared (terrified) of him, and also because he's paying for college
Please help me, I¬ím at the end of my rope. I should probably also mention that I have been invited to other places for Thanksgiving, but I want to have a healthy relationship with my family, and I don¬ít feel that running away is the answer. I want to get all of this out in the air so I don¬ít have to be afraid anymore.
I would appreciate some wisdom from all of you.
I am sorry to hear this! I think it is important for you to have a serious talk with him about why you do what you do, and offer him some things to read that easily explain the raw-food health truths. Do you have specific reasons for doing raw other than weight loss? Explain those to him to show that it is not an eating disorder. As scared as you are of facing this with him, I am sure that his heart would break to read the post you just wrote. Show him your desire for health, and support from your family. It is the only way to get him to try and understand!
GOOOOD LUCK! I know it will be ok!
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you can want a healthy relationship with your family until youre at your wits end, but unless the participation is mutual chances of achieving your goal are slim. if somebody is not going to love and support you regardless of your choices, they are not a person you need to include in your life - particularly if they are causing you such stress because you are "terrified" of them. you have other offers, take those people up on them.
see, my interpretation here is "i dont want to tell him im vegan because im terrified of him" and "i dont want to go elsewhere because then ill feel guilty." okay, but what about YOU hunny? what about your own feelings?
i dealt with putting my emotionally abusive father before myself for 5 years. and now? i dont speak to him. and no i dont feel great, but i feel a heck of a lot better than i used to. you cant let guilt absorb you like that. love yourself and those who unconditionally love you first and foremost, focus on those who present you only with conditional love afterwards or not at all.
just because theyre family, does not mean you are obligated to include them in your life should they do anything but support and love you. there are 6.5 billion people on this planet, many of whom are waiting with open arms to love another. accept the offer for thanksgiving dinner elsewhere, and avoid the situation altogether. and while youre at it, congratulate yourself for making the first step towards loving yourself as unconditionally as youre attempting to love your father.
We don't have ideology. We don't have theology. We dance.
How much more college do you have to go? You're in a tough spot if provoking him might mean the end of your college money - it's like choosing between your health or your education (and the career that will be based on that education!)
In your shoes, I think I'd try not to make waves yet, I'd eat somewhere else and wait until after college for the confrontation. If he sounded at all understanding, I'd try to work it out, but it doesn't sound like he's even willing to consider the possibility that there might be another side besides his, at least based on what you've posted.
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Those are great posts above, and I can see the sense in going either way.
Another consideration is, how much 'normal' food would you have to eat to keep the peace? If it's only one dinner, it might be worth eating a few cooked but well-chosen, well-combined foods. Eating raw is not a religion. It should be about being healthy, not some strict principle that doesn't make any sense objectively. In other words, there are lots of raw foods that are less healthy than some simple cooked foods and as a new raw fooder you most likely eat some of them (unhealthy raw foods). You can bet that if most raw fooders don't know this, the people you'll be eating with don't know it either. You'll be able to give the appearance of abusing yourself without really doing so. :)
Whether you can get away with it physically without feeling awful the next day will depend on how long you've been raw, and whether you can eat small quantities and draw the line at those few designated foods without going into a full blown backsliding frenzy.
If your education is being paid for in full, that's a lot to lay on the line for the sake of your diet. And if it's just Thanksgiving, it is only one meal. Your dad probably feels like he has a right to say what you should do with your life for now, even perhaps down to the way you take care of yourself, if he's making such a big investment in you. That's the way it works with parents sometimes.
I'm not sure which way I'd go, but I think you should give yourself some slack and forgive yourself if you do have to compromise. Principles are great but they don't pay the bills. You have to think about what serves *your* long term best interests.
Well I think we have all possible angles covered now! :) However, I think it's important that you not take any of our comments too much to heart since only you know all the factors that are involved. Thanks for asking our thoughts and best of luck w/ whatever you decide to do.
Originally Posted by bittersweet
Sounds like there is already history between you and your father? Do you think this may just be the last straw to challenge you in standing your own ground. There comes a time in our own life where we are challenge to make our own decisions and at times, defend our beliefs,convicitons, morals etc.
What is the [worst] that will happen if you eat what [you] want to eat? Is anyone determing what they will eat?
I wish you strength and peace. :)
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I so want to commend you for wanting to pursue a relationship with your father.
I have to disagree in part with eatyourbrocolli; you can keep doors open for relationship, you can pave the way, and you can do all of that without submitting to any additional abuse.
My mother was a very emotionally abusive alcoholic who undermined my best efforts to be myself and embrace my own purpose. I was fortunate to have a mentor who walked me through the landmine of being inviting without asking for more damage. I'd love to tell you that it all worked out, but it didn't. She remained abusive until the end, but I can look in the mirror and feel proud that I gave her every opportunity to know me and love me. I gave her every chance for a real relationship.
I didn't always handle everything well, sometimes I handled everything badly, but I'm left with no regret.
The day may come when you will have to cut ties with him, I feel confident that you and you alone will know if that day has come.
In the meantime, do your best to be true to yourself and your goals during the holidays, compromise your diet only to the extent that it serves your purpose of relationship without damaging your health. For example, if you've been low-fat raw and eat a full American Thanksgiving Day meal, you will be sick afterwards, probably.
Consider the book The Pathway by Laurel Mellin, it's been a life rope to me.
You also make a plate of good raw stuff but thow a little turkey or whatever on there & kinda cut it up & move it around without actually eating it!
Originally Posted by RawVeganMom
Wish it was as easy as that... this isn't going to work anymore.
Rawnora has some good points.
If it were me, and my father was paying for my college, I would consider eating some cooked food for Thanksgiving, and maybe a Christmas dinner. Two meals out of the year really would not be that bad.
Think of it like this - let's say that he is paying $10,000 a year for your education. I know that I would eat two well-combined cooked meals a year for $5,000 a plate to keep the peace with my father for a few years.
Right now, your education is more important than a couple of cooked meals a year. Once you have a job, and have your own money, you will be able to support the lifestyle that you choose.
After college, you can talk to him like two adults, and the balance of power will actually be with you - since you will be the one who might have his grandchildren. He will need to treat you like an adult and listen. Tell your dad about all of the things that raw can help prevent - heart disease, prostate cancer. All of the things that his friends are going through. That might be a good way to get him to sit down with you and actually listen to what you are saying.
a book that turned me from vegan to raw = raw fruit and vegi juices by norman walker (whom lived as a raw foodist to be 118 ) .
can be bought mail order for $10 from norwalk press in prescot arizona .
in first 35 pages of this simple but enlightening book i was convinced for evermore that raw plant matter is what we best exist on .
The above posts are great! Take responsibility for YOUR feelings. You can't control another individual (especially family! ha! ha!)
-You certainly can't expect others who might be doing the wrong thing, to understand you or your lifestyles. All you can do is be a support to THEM.
-Practical suggestion: Bring your own fruit / veggie plate. Eat exclusively off of that plate. If your family asks (don't volunteer ANY information) then say you are trying to eat all fresh fruits and veggies. This usually makes sense to folks. Even die-hard poor eaters generally recognize the idea that eating more fresh fruits and vegetables is healthy for you.
-You don't have to draw lines in the sand and force other people to cross them. Simply set dignity boundaries for yourself that you do not cross. You won't have to be defensive or take up an ultimatum position.
-Just some suggestions. Power to you.
-David Z. Mason
Two thanksgivings ago, I stood my ground and ate ALL raw while 23 other people at the table stared at my huge plate of pears and a huge salad. It took a long time for my parents to understand, but I stood my ground, and now I am hugely respected for it. How much does this mean to you? Of course, it is natural to be frightened, but you have a choice to let it affect you or for you to EFFECT it.
Kristina (also known as Pookie) :D :p
Two thanksgivings ago, I stood my ground and ate ALL raw while 23 other people at the table stared at my huge plate of pears and a huge salad. It took a long time for my parents to understand, but I stood my ground, and now I am hugely respected for it. How much does this mean to you? Of course, it is natural to be frightened, but you have a choice to let it affect you or for you to EFFECT it. Now, I have half of my family eating raw with me this coming thanksgiving...there is hope, but you gotta get through the rain to see the rainbow.
Kristina (also known as Pookie) :D :p
I've been reading this thread and holding back on some advice, but after reading the myriad of suggestions these are my thoughts.
You are an adult.
Whether or not he's your father, whether or not he's paying for your school, whether or not he thinks you have an eating disorder, it is no longer his problem.
He can worry, threaten, humiliate and intimidate you all he can, and you can let him do it, take it personally or not.
But this is YOUR body now, you are no longer under his care or responsibility.
When you lend or give someone money, it is his business how he spends it.
When you have someone over for dinner, it is his business what and how he chooses to eat.
You eat what YOU want on Thanksgiving, not what HE wants you to eat. If you want raw, eat it. If you want cooked, than eat it. You do not need to make excuses or explanations or apologies as to what YOU want to eat.
And by him gossiping to other family members untruths about you, he's going to have to deal with his OWN consequences, it is HIS problem, not yours.
What you have to work on here is how to not let that bother you or make you sick. Work on being happy in your life and not allowing it to torment you, because he will see that and take advantage.
Make no apologies, this is where you are in your life, and this is where he is in his life.
When he sees that you are comfortable and happy and healthy, things will turn around, but if you are in any way giving him messages of your weakness, he will pick up on that.
I wish you all the best - this is a time for love, family, freedom and thankfullness. I hope you each find that in one another.
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