I am about 3-1/2 weeks raw now. I've always had a weight problem and food addiction. I basically went from fast food to 100% raw. Last week I finally had a break through and realized that I want a raw lifestyle and not a diet. For me, the difference is letting go of seeing all my symptoms disappear overnight and also letting go of the guilt if I do have a few bites (or even a meal here and there) of cooked foods.

I have a new obstacle this week. I feel like I have lost my identity. I have two daughters, ages 5 and 8. Next year the little one is going to Kindergarten. This week alone I have stopped teaching religious education, being a leader for Girl Scouts, and quit teaching water aerobics. In two weeks, my mother will come visit. This will be her first visit in three years and the first one since she has somewhat acknowledged my abusive childhood. I am happy with all these changes. This is what I wanted. I have started volunteering with my naturopath and hope to eventually coach people on a raw lifestyle. My problem is that feel like I took away the main way I used to comfort myself, food. I don't want it back, but also don't know what to do right now. I realize now that being fat has always been a shield for me. Also, my husband's job is stessing him out right now and the kids are demanding a lot of attention so taking time for myself would be difficult. Is this a normal emotional cleanse? Anyone have any words of wisdom? I should also mention that I have my period and am feeling sensitive.

Elaina
http://elaina-goes-raw.blogspot.com