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Hey all!

This is crazy!! I quit smoking almost a year ago, May 1st will be my smoke free anniversary . I didn't do a whole lot of coughing when I quit and I used the nic gum to help. Anyway, it's been okay and I think, compared to some, I had a pretty decent time quitting. This morning though the weirdest thing happened! I woke up feeling hot and sticky. As I made breakfast for the girls I kept smelling this icky smell. I couldn't figure out where it was coming from. Then, low and behold, I smelled myself and it was me!!! I didn't exactly smell like smoke, more like that gross, stale, chemically, smoker's smell. Usually when I am raw I have not body oder that is "bad" and I can forgo the deo. But this was nasty! I think I detoxed some smoker toxins! Crazy to think I could do this almost a year later!! So now, after a good, hot, long shower I feel better. :)

My visualizing last night was a challenge. I couldn't hold a positive image of myself, as I am right now, in my head too long. Other thoughts came fluttering in and I found myself distracted. I'm sure it's a skill that improves with practice. I have been so self conscious and self deprecating for so long, I'm thinking this more positive approach will take time. I will be at it again tonight though!! :)

I haven't mentioned this but my DH, Q, is going to be home in 22 days...***HAPPY DANCE** I'm soooooo excited! It's been since November since he's been gone.

Have a great day everyone!