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Hi all!

Star- It's so good to be back! I'm so happy to see your thoughts again! It does give me a sense of strength. You are right, I need to just listen to my body. With they way I've treated it, :) it's amazing it behaves as well as it does! It's almost liberating to trust and let go

Hygeia- The power of the mind is amazing. I know there is so much potential there! Now to just switch the gears around... :)

taltal- I was just reading a thread which talked about positive visualization! It will certainly help to focus that power of the mind. :)

So with that, I'm going to get back to visualization. I used to do it, when I first went raw, right before I went to sleep. I think I was waaaay too goal oriented. My desires were sort of shallow and vain. I would see in my head the lines around my eyes diminishing, my tummy flatter, thighs smoother, the pre-breastfeeding perky boobs etc. etc. Kind of like a virtual plastic surgeon. Seems like a desperate attempt to be something I'm not. I feel a a little guilty looking back! After all this body has given me 39 years of good health in spite of what I've done to it! It gave me and the world 3 beautiful daughters!

Instead this time I want to try to accept who I am today. I know that conflicts with yesterday's comment about the 15lb grief , but I'm gonna try! I read about people with serious health problems and think "Elissa, you are kind of a jerk to fret over these superficial things. Come on girl, you've got more depth than that!!!" :) This time I want to visualize accepting and getting to a point at which all this "noise" doesn't affect me so. Striving for perfection, or perkiness, smoothness, firmness.... whatever, is futile. Obviously my body has a plan and I need to remind myself that by being raw I am allowing it to do what it is meant to do and look and weigh the way it is meant to. THAT is what I'm going to strive for and THAT is what I'm going to try to let be enough.

Sometimes I feel like a fish flapping around on the ground with all the back and forth thinking I do! Bear with me, y'all, I'm doing some growing here.:)

Yesterday I listened to what my body was wanting. I ended up eating mainly fruit and some romaine, no fats. I felt great! Today I'm doing/wanting/needing the same. Interestingly, if I really pay attention I can nail whatever it is I'm wanting/needing. It's cool to know that you can do that! It's like an adventure... what is my body going to ask for next? :)

:)

Have a great day everyone!