Raw on the Cheap
So, I'm back. Yesterday was nearly 100% and today, so far so good. I am down 5 lbs since Tues. But still up 10 lbs since the beginning of Feb. Not sure what I will eat. That is very unsettling. I have to eat CHEAP-and I mean really really really cheap. Dh is not quite as supportive this time around. he liked the freedom of being able to eat together, or stop ANYWHERE to eat. He said he knew I had gained a little weight back, but he had no idea it was 15 lbs in 4 weeks!
So my journey begins once again. part of me is mad. mad that I gained 15 lbs. mad that I HAVE to be raw for life to control my destructive binging behaviors. It isn't a choice for me and for some reason, this makes me mad.....but then again if it WAS a choice, I'd probably waiver back and forth my whole life never experiencing true freedom from my eating disorder.