Feel soo down today...
byon 03-11-2008 at 07:58 AM (535 Views)
I feel really down today for a couple of reasons. Last night hubby and I were updating the budget... and it came down to questions like "well how much are you spending on your groceries now???". And stuff like that. It just makes me feel like I can't buy groceries. We don't do anything else... we never go out anymore... or do anything!! I kinda figured I could at least eat. I know deep down that he isn't saying that... but it makes me feel that way, and like I told him... "you know... this isn't exactly fun for me!". I'm trying to lose weight for the both of us... and right now there isn't much satisfaction in it for me... other than seeing the weight come off slowly. My energy is in the dumps... I'm sick and feel like crap... etc. Part of me just wants to say screw it... I'll eat grilled cheese sandwiches and hotdogs... which are dirt cheap. How come eating well costs so damn much!! All the farmers have to do it throw the seeds in the ground, care for the plants and watch them grow. When you talk about making things like cheese, hotdogs, etc., your now talking lots of different ingredients, machines to make it, ppl to run the machines, etc. etc. So how come THAT is cheaper than a few seeds in the ground. Makes no sense to me. Anyways... the budget always pisses me off b/c I can't help but feel like well relax the purse strings a little... ya know... this is about health... the one thing that should be a good thing to spend money on. The best solution that I could come up with... is now I'm going to pay for my own groceries out of my own budget... guess I can say bye bye to any future vitamix (which I was saving up for).