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I have been MIA a bit. I did go out of town for three days by myself, and it was really a wonderful time. I had been teetering about whether I wanted 100% raw and grabbing non-raw food for emotional reasons, grabbing lots of nuts too...

On my time on my own, I was in this beach house with an amazing view (that was a great discount since it was the off season!) and a fireplace. I spread my books out that I wanted to poke around, brainstormed, journaled. I did drink herbal tea a little bit (peppermint), juiced a ton, did eat some solid food, shopped at Old Navy (boy, that was healing, I got new jeans, sweaters, yoga pants, had a good 'ole time... and bought lots of matching running socks. Aaaaah.), drove around, ran along the beach, took lots of pictures, really just spent time on my own.

In such a short time, I realized much more clearly what I want to do job-wise, where I want to live, that I really, really want to be raw, how my husband fits in to my life, how much I am worth! It was sooooo good to just be separate from my usual life and clutter and stress, and it was so healing. :)

I just posted this regarding people who had only a bit of weight to lose, and I think it's worth throwing in here:
When I first went raw, I wasn't thinking of weight at all, I just wanted my stomach to stop hurting all the time. (OK, and I wanted to stop passing gas all the time too!)... Raw stopped them both within the WEEK (after many months of trying other things).

And, I don't have a scale, but I would say that within a month or two I had dropped down from about 130 to about 120 (I'm 5'6 and very small boned, so both of those weights are okay for me). I was all raw for a while, then started turning to other food for emotional reasons and the weight creeped back up some. I'm back to all raw, emotionally stable enough to make it happen again, but it's taking a little longer to get back (I'm probably about 125 now).

I will tell you that it really is all about detox and emotions for some people. I dropped the initial weight partially because I went to be with my mom in FL (which meant being separate from husband, stepkids, usual stress) for a month during that time. So much emotional healing took place during that time. It was so amazing.

Then I came back home and had a hard time standing my ground with raw and everything else. It's taken a lot of effort to realize what's happening. I MUST be taking care of myself emotionally and being gentle with myself, not judging or being harsh at all. My body keeps the little tummy pooch to protect me when I'm not protecting myself. It's a physiological reaction because of any sort of emotional distress or obsession with getting rid of weight or beating oneself up for things etc.

Focus on taking care of yourself, healing any tendency to be hard on yourself or to avoid your real dreams/goal/interests, follow your dreams, be happy with yourself as you are now today, eat only 100% raw when you're hungry, listen to what your body is really craving separate from emotions, (ie nuts are fine and good until you're not even hungry and eat a whole bag for emotional reasons)... and I promise/guarantee any weight that should not be there will drop off quicker than you ever imagined. :)