Eva has no idea how to post a new entry.

The only thing I'm going to say about yesterday is that it's over now...

Today... I made my bed first thing, the music's back to my chosen one (Willy Mason: I think I'm in love with this guy. He gets me dancing in my chair in a funky way. Gotta love that!), and it's loud! I putting myself in good spirits. Someone's gotta do it!

Today... I'm oil pulling for as long as I can stand it. Then I'm water fasting for the first half of the day, possibly the whole day. I'll move on to juice "feasting" the second half of today or tomorrow. Haven't decided yet.

But... today... I do have a knot in my stomach that I can't figure out if it's just emotions, but I'm thinking it's more likely something that's locked in my intestines or some part of my body and wants to break out of this awful jail! Hopefully it will be released soon!

This coming weekend, I rented this beautiful beach house with 5 bedrooms that is ON the beach and has THE most spectacular view. It's a delightful place to be introspective and all that jazz. Almost ridiculous for just me to be there! First, I actually rented it with the idea in mind to have a raw retreat there... But if I'm not at my best, I just don't feel comfortable with that. Second, I thought, Wow! My husband and I could have a romantic weekend there. Well... now my weekend is a mere two days away, and I have no interest in bringing anyone but me, myself, and I... more specifically, ME! HA!

So, that's the plan. On Friday, I'm going to head out to the house, have a bubble bath when I get there, journal, whatever else floats my boat. I'm thinking of making this a 5-day fast that will end on Sunday. I need to get through these emotional connections with food that have come back alive. I've got to tell my body and my mind that yes, I REALLY do want to be healthy. And clean it back out. Ick.

Do you think that's okay to have a fast while out of town?? I'm thinking I could be smart about it and just bring bananas and oranges, maybe some almonds and dried fruit packed away just in case I'm feeling like my safety could be at risk while I'm driving.

Better yet... maybe I could make this a 5-day feast of sorts and start with water, then move on to juice tomorrow, then on Friday start with juice and add green smoothies back in and on Saturday and Sunday start the days with water, then juice, then smoothies. Then on Monday, I could just ease myself back into food. :) I'm just feeling so gross, and I've been so conflicted, that I've got to something drastic to really give my body/mind/all the message I WANT!