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soon I will have a set schedule again. Chaos has been my number one friend lately. So much that I've only been 50% to 75% raw for about a month. My weight hasn't changed though...weird. It's gone up and down between 135 and 139. So I'm okay there. Even though the guilt I feel after each time I feed my old habits isn't okay. I need to get back to where I was. And I will. Life is getting in the way. I know it isn't a great excuse but it's all I've got right now. My husband is 100% on board with trying raw. Yesterday he wanted what I was having for lunch. Spicy taco meat in lettuce wraps. But he wanted some sour cream on them....it's a start. I just need to figure out how to make my own. That's what I'll be doing tomorrow. I've got all kinds of nuts and seeds soaking right now. Tomorrow everyone better stay outta the kitchen, I've got PEPPER SPRAY!!!! :)

He promises to do this with me. Since I have my evenings back after 7 years, I'll make our breakfast smoothies at night. And I'll make his salad for lunch to take with him to work. He wants to eat a regular dinner. And I know for a fact that eventually, he will be making better dinner choices. It comes automatic when you've been eating healthy the majority of the day. When he sticks his mind to something he does very well. THat's how he was when we did atkins. Yes, we tried atkins. I got tired of it. I mean so grossed out by it. That was 4 years ago.

I know better now. Actually, I knew better then, but it was the fad at the time of course...and you know fads. :)

Another update, I'm quitting blockbuster. They are so unorganized, I keep getting the run around. Long story short, after so many walls, blocks, and hints, I've decided that someone doesn't want me to work at blockbuster. I think I need to stop ignoring the signs and follow what I'm being told.

I just pray he will lead me to a more organized, better paying job. One that is a lot more my pace and personality. Library? I hope so. The interview is on the 10th. I won't have to work so many hours and spend more time on school, hunny bunny, and uncooking to keep him satisfied.

One more thing, if you can avoid and stores whatsoever today, please do. they are all insanely busy. I wanted to cry.

Be safe and Happy New Year!