So I haven't posted in a while...
The last few weeks have been kind of crazy.
I basically had a brief anorexia relapse. I don't know what to do with myself, its like most of my brain is telling me I need to eat and fill myself up with a load of good stuff, but there's always a part of my brain that looks in the mirror and sees nothing but fat, even though most of my brain knows I am at a low weight, and envies stick thin people although they are unhealthy, and hates food even though I know I need it.
So it took control of me again and I starved myself for a couple of weeks, loving how strong I felt every time my stomach rumbled. Then I started fainting again and just kind of snapped out of it. It just seems I'm normal most of the time but every so often this eating disorder seizes control of me and I'm a slave to it.
But I'm back on track now. Sorry, I just needed to get it out.