Road 2 Health. The journey continues.

It was an emotional day. Started sunny and ended with a thunder storm. I was driving to pick up kids from school and I was singing with the radio and was so energetic I could hardly contain myself and then I started laughing. Then it became tears of joy. I realized that I had not felt the way I felt at that exact moment in ten years since knowing I was in love with my husband. I called him at work to tell him so.

The weight of ten years of depression and upset and longing for things could not have was over taken by joy for my life right now and what I do have. Love, family,friends,health,home.

I have spent the last ten years crying over what I could not have and it has wasted a lot of time. I know it is okay to mourn loss but it can not stop your life. It can not comsume your ability to love and nurture your family. It is the way it is and forward is the way to go. You have to do more than get up every morning and just survve until the end of the day. I am a survivor and a thriver.

I also made blueberry pie for breakfast for tomorrow and fettucine alfredo for dinner. Even my hubby liked it.

Bloodsugar was steady at 140.

I am off to create in my kitchen, to sprout and soak I go.

I have no desire to go back to SAD - emotionally or food.