Fell off the wagon!
I want to thank you all for your wonderful responses to my meltdown. It IS good to know that I am not alone . I hate typing because my typing is slow sucks and full of mistakes especially when I have a lot to day. As you can see I fell off the wagon big time over this weekend. I have been teetering on the edge since my skin nasties started.Then I am in Physio for my sacro illiac joint and was not allowed to exercise for this last week. I have been so depressed I feel like I am deliberately SABOTAGING MY OWN EFFORTS AND JUST BEFORE Xmas TOO. I AM DOWN TO A SIZE 10 PANTS NOW YOU THINK THAT WOULD COUNT FOR SOMETHING? i HAVE EATEN SAD FOOD AND EXCEPT FOR MY ALLERGIC REACTION TO IT AND THE FACT THAT I NOW FEEL LIKE CRAP. iT TASTED SOO GOOD..LOL.
I AM SICK.
I HAD A LITTLE BEER AND WINE TOo .Dam my caps are on sorry! Not much cos it got me tipsy really fast and I had a mega hangover.
Why did I do this?
Any way I am gonna follow the advice posted here and not allow myself to fall back into my old ways I gave myself until midnight Sunday and then said NO MORE. I am back on track I hope as of now. and I deserve the fact I have to go back through detox etc.
I appreciate your responses you have no idea how much I do feel that I have let you all down and my self though I am used to doing that , done it all my life.
I will write more later