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Today is November 14th, 08
Well, Its been a long time since my last entry and since then, well I've fallen off the preverbal wagon. Since about August I have gotten off my raw path and went back to sad. And of course, feel worse gained 10 pounds and do not feel good about myself. I've had some family issues come into play that have really taken a toll on my diet (which should be no excuse) and general feeling. My back has gotten bad again because I stopped yoga.
Why do we do this to ourselves. I mean really?
We plan and work so hard to take care of ourselves and within a matter of 3 months I'm back to this. I haven't gained all my wieght back , still down 13 pounds. It just makes me so blasted mad at myself that I have no control
So many things in our lives we have little control over, but how we eat and take care of ourselves we have full control and it seems that's the one thing i have no will power for.

I started back on my raw plan on Monday. I did have steamed aspargus today on my raw salad, but I think that is ok. One thing people going raw need to remember is the transisiton peroid. If you need something warm at least make it vegan (no animal products and processed foods).
Another thing that is hard is I really like wine. Organic of course.
So after a long day at work, an hour of traffic picking up my little one, making dinner, homework etc. I really want that wine. But it goes straight to my stomach and backside.
So I've decieded if I do well during the week, I get a treat on Saturday night of wine. I just need to keep in check so the calories don't get too high.

Why does it always seem so hard to do this. Why is it that weight and food are always on my mind trying to master the process. Why can't it just me a normal day to day thing I don't think or obsess about.
Craziness.

Monday and Tuesday were good 80% raw all vegan ( I did have two glasses of wine and two beers however included in calcuation).
Today has been good too. I plan on 90% raw and no ab today.

I need to stay off the scale until next week too. It depresses me when it goes up and down up and down.

Most of the family knows I'm vegan for thanksgiving, 24 of us! I plan on bringing some raw items and sticking to my guns.
I've had 47 years of turkey and dressing, I think I'm fine without.
I've also started a holiday weight program at the fitness center (it is on our work campus so no execuses!) I'm gong to get on the treadmill at 1:00, Friday is yoga.

I always feel so much better when I write this out and it is always interesting to see what I've written months down the road.
I wish all the best to you and to me.