The past couple of days I have tried to do raw, but have failed miserably - completely out of control binged my way into physical sickness. It became one of those "I'm never going to eat this again so I better eat as much now as possible" things, which really makes no sense at all. Food for me is an emotional comfort, and lately, I have been going through a really rough time. My thoughts have become entirely focused on food and eating. Anytime I'm home, I am eating, eating nonstop for hours on end. Not a sustainable life, physically or emotionally. My thoughts are still always on food; I fear raw is just my newest trend/obsession...
Breakfast 10am- banana, apple
Lunch 2pm- green smoothie (baby spinach, 1.5 leaves kale, pear, frozen peaches, agave)
Snack 5pm - broccolli (warmed on 50% power in the microwave - i just cant do raw broccolli yet, i only recently discovered i can tolerate broccolli period!), raisins (meh), agave; banana
Right now I feel bloated.
I want to go to Whole Foods tonight to get more fruit, and perhaps MSM?
I need to do schoolwork, which I haven't done any of in several weeks.
I am currently blowing off my tutoring duties.
I have had a terrible, terrible month; Raw is the only thing offering me hope right now.
I am surronded by people and feel so alone.
I have shut myself off from others.