i don't want to settle
byon 09-17-2007 at 09:06 PM (342 Views)
Okay, I pretty much am set on moving to and going to Boston for school in the fall. I know I only visited once but I fell in love with the atmosphere of the city and felt very comfortable in it immediately. It seems like a great place to meet lots of people my age (after all there are a load of colleges in Boston) as well as have a more diverse experience. I've always wanted to live in a more energetic city atmosphere where I could be in close proximity to a variety of things such as schools, museums, shows, cultures, etc, etc but found certain cities like New York City just a bit too overwhelming for me. Boston is certainly a big city but at the the same time its small enough to not make you feel like a speck of dust sitting at the foot of a pyramid or something. Also, my friend that i visited wants to find a roommate or two to go in on an apartment with and i figured that it would be a great oppurtunity for the both of us. Well anyway, my mom doesn't seem to keen on the idea. She thinks I should just go to a school around my house, like a local state school. Now I have nothing against those, but deep down I know its not for me. I don't just want to go to school on an isolated campus, i want to be immersed in the city. My mom is like "oh well you can just take the bus up to new york or boston or whatever." but that won't fix my problem. She thinks i should just go to whatever school is cheapest even if i am unhappy there and stick it out until i graduate. maybe that would be fine if i had a set career path in mind but i don't. I want to major in philosophy, but beyond that I really don't know what i want to do yet. Thats why i think the city is such a good idea. I won't be isolated like i was at my old school. I will exposed to so many different things that Im sure i will be able to carve out some definition in my life direction. I mean, i understand truly where my mom is coming from but I dont want to be like so many people who merely settle for the safe route. I have this single life and i want to utilize it and go after my absolute dreams. I don't want to take the safe boring route and then regret it later. I don't want to be a victim of fear or laziness. I won't be. I know school in Boston could likely cost a bit more than a local state school but thats why I want to work my butt off and save a lot of money as well as search for and hopefully get a good amount of private scholarships through things like Fastweb. I know its going to be hard work and its going to be a lot more work than i did preparing to go to college the first time around but i was in a completely different state of mind back then. I am a different person now. Now I relish in change, the unknown, taking chances and going after what I really deeply desire. I suppose I need to devise a more concrete plan of action to give to my mom.
Like, right now I'm searching for a second job and I hope to work 2 jobs and get as many hours as possible. I also have started the application process for a few schools in boston and im just doing a lot of research right now.
So, what do you guys think? Am i crazy?