Wheeeeeee! Letting go.....
What is it about the past that makes it so hard to let go and move forward?
I have been thinking about this a lot this weekend. It seems like even if it's painful, hurtful and shameful...we'd rather grasp tightly onto that memory of life than unclench our fists and reach toward our goals, dreams and future.
Why? Why? Why?
Is it... "I was always the chubby one", "there was alcoholism and abuse in my family", "I was so unpopular and had such low self esteem" "fear of failure" "it's what I've always done" OR "_________________"? (fill in the blank) I have a list going of my own...
During my trip to Maine I was confronted with this question head on.
Beppa...what is holding you back? Why can't you drop it and move forward?
The answer??? It's all I've known, it's my comfort zone and I'm afraid to fail.
But, I'm ready. :) The white knuckles are gone and my grip is loosening up.
I had a thought of holding onto an old rusty lightpost with one hand (my past) and grabbing on to the basket of a big beautiful hot air balloon with the other (my future).
Yes one is safe but it is standing still. The other represents some danger yes, but also soaring heights with amazing views and freedom.:) The thing is...I CAN'T HOLD ON TO BOTH!
So I am making a choice TODAY to let go of my past and reach out to the future and grasp hold of it with both hands. WHOOHAAAH! Just writing that gave me goosebumps and made my heart race!!!
I have been reading other posts this weekend, and it sounds like I'M NOT ALONE. Anyone else ready to let go? Ready to reach forward with both hands and grasp that amazing future?