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It's 3am and i'm finally starting a blog. I've been tossing and turning because I have a lot on my mind and a ton of heavy indian food in my belly.
3 days ago I decided to do another smoothie fast and created a post stating so. Later that day I got a call from my doctor's office with bad news I was not expecting at all. My heart sunk. My fast ended as soon as it began. I miserably consolled myself by thinking "you're doing the very best thing you can do for yourself by eating raw and cleansing." and yet all I wanted to do was stop and eat cooked food. I gave up.
I searched the internet for the foods and supplements I should be consuming under my new circumstances and I went out and got whatever I didnt have-mainly carrots. I'm gonna need lots of carrot juice.
Over the past 2 years I've gone on and off raw. My main motivations for healing being excess weight, years of too much partying and worries about premature aging and borderline thyroid and adrenal problems, gluten intolerance as well as various little pesky things that I know I shouldnt be putting up with if only I took care of myself better. I've never been much of a junk food eater-most people consider me a very healthy eater...But I know my body needs better health and that cooked foods are not giving that to me.
Now I'm faced with a new challenge and I'm ready to do whatever it takes to get to total vibrant health.
One of the main reasons I have trouble committing to raw foods completely is the impact it has on my social life. However, I'm ready to become a hermit if thats what it takes. I'm lucky that I'm not married and I dont have children. I can be selfish and just do whatever I need to do.
I refuse to label myself by illness. Time and again I see people describe themselves by an illness they have. They form an attachment to that identity. I prefer to focus on the health I have, the happiness I have and the place I want to be in. You will never win at suffering. Someone will always have it worse, so why try?
Time to turn the bowl over and toss everything out.
Today I really do start my smoothie/juice fast.