byon 03-09-2007 at 09:19 AM (482 Views)
Well I had a hard time getting to sleep because I was so mad at this person in my choir, and trying to justify my glass of wine. (which made me feel FAR more intoxicated than it 'should') Ended up drinking some detox tea and doing some yoga meditation to get some sleep.
I might as well tell you that I direct a choir, and for the most part it is filled with lovely volunteers that I could have 50 more like without the choir bothering me. HOWEVER, there is this one lady, how has insinuated herself into my life, think she is an extra mother and thinks she can tell me what to do in my professional capacity. First of all she isn't anywhere near close enough to be anything like my mom, (my mom and I are very close) and second she is so loud and often so wrong that it isn't just me getting annoyed! Whenever I correct the choir she always interupts and adds snide comments or just belittles what I have to say because I am a woman. Last night I told her next to the words CHOIR DIRECTOR it says JANE in bold underscore! and therefore, what I said was what was going to happen and if she didn't like it there was an exit stage right. Now I have to tell you that I have to be pushed a great deal to stand up for myself like that. It is part of my brain injury from my accident, that conflict gives me horrible brain spliting headaches and I have trouble getting angry I usually cry instead because my emotions are scrambled up. This time atleast I got angry, and it was righteous anger.
Anyway, point is that today is a new day, and I'm going to do my best to do better today. :)