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Hi Everyone,

Thanks for the kind words Starfire, I really appreciate them :)
I was entirely raw again yesterday, mostly ate fruit, as I had nothing else left. I am down exactly 5 pounds from this time last week!!! I'm not sure if it's the raw food, or just not eating my usual chips and chocolate....not overeating. I seem to be fine to not partake in whatever is on the coffee table at night, even if I smell it, I can't explain why this doesn't bother me. Normally I would last about 5 seconds, or maybe 5 minutes.

As for yesterday's financial woes, I have decided to just get a waitressing job a couple of nights a week. It will solve some immediate problems. I cannot stand 'asking' for money from dh, nor having to defend my spending habits. I warned him that if it came to this, I would just get a job....something he doesn't want me to do, as a) it will infringe upon his schedule, and b) he can make more than I can in the same amount of time anyway. He runs his own business, it's small, but pretty successful, he calls his own hours....which does mean I can make him take care of the kids. Part of me is doing it in retaliation and part, obviously so I can enjoy some financial liberty....not that I'm a big spender, we don't go on jet setting vacations, I drive a cheap, paid for van so I don't have vehicle payments, I get plenty of hand-me-downs. He's being apparently typical, or it's going around lately, because I know of two other dh's who are being similar, and they don't even have to budget real hard.
Marriages can be soooo hard sometimes!

But yes, I am still raw. I think about cheating sometimes, but I really don't want to have dairy, I think it is the root of a number of my problems. I also don't want to have wheat, gluteny stuff, as it might alternatively be causing me grief. I also don't want to have anything with MSG in it, as I look like the walking dead the next morning I have noticed. And I am shying away from meat, purely out of guilt for eating it. So what's left to cheat on exactly? Beans? ....not worth it, lol. ;) I just figure there are raw choices, I just need to get a little less lazy about finding them. I did read about a watermelon steak, and some other fun ideas elsewhere on this site, so I am going to try some of those. Didn't know I could just eat raw corn, much less that it's supposed to actually taste good.

Oh, yes, I did have half a bbq'd mushroom on day 4 or 5. So I was only 99.99% raw.

Anna.