Whew!!! made it again....
I made it again!! Yeah!! (jumping for joy)
Ok, seems I'm on a pretty good ride. I made it again!!!! Seems like the key for me is being prepared. Actually allowing myself enough time to be prepared. Wake up and have enough time to make my drink to take to work, get my apples, carrots, & banana's. I had a salad for dinner and some cantalope for desert. I seem to be ok right now, not going crazy for "something/anything" like I was last night and the night before. I don't know why. I can't tell what is different tonight from yesterday. I wish I knew why I am not dying for some food right now. Well, I should not question it, I just need to appreciate it.
Oh, I actually do have something to be proud of myself about today. It doesn't sound like much but for me, it is monumental..........at work, this afternoon, they were having an "Ice cream social". Everyone kept "reminding me" and asking me, "Hey Jeannie, don't forget to go get your ice cream"....Hey Jeannie, aren't you going to get your ice cream?" and "Hey Jeannie.......you can get one now and get one to take home with you?". I was just saying "yeah" because 1. I thought I was going to cave....2. Because I didn't want to go but didn't want them to know 3. I didn't know what to do....it was driving me crazy. Well, I got busy so that "I didn't have time" to go. That is what I ended up saying. My co-workers seemed to be very disappointed that I didn't go get my free ice cream. I am sooooo happy I didn't. I know me, If I had gotten the ice cream, I would have beaten myself up (after eating it)and I would have continued eating more sad......
So for me, that is truely monumental.............whew!!
I showed my students a video,"the secret". It is pretty good actually, talks about how you just have to "ask" for what you want and you will get it. You have to "visualize" what you want and it will appear. I am going to work at adding these tips to the habits I am trying to add.
But for now..........I can say, Whew!! ......I made it again! RAW!!!