This is my Nineveh!

So far it's been a week since I put my mind to it and committed to going back raw. I'm still just as afraid and anxious as I was in the beginning and have been exploring the Internet on my breaks at work and when traveling since I don't drive and came to an amazing realization that I hadn't before that knocked me on my mental but.

I am now ten years post traumatic brain injury. I was diagnosed with epilepsy several years ago. It isn't uncommon after an event like that.

Before my diagnosis I had been raw for over a year, lost tons of weight. And I realized my neurological problems made themselves visible when I stopped eating raw.

Migraines, Jacksonian seizures, ticks twitches, involuntary jerking of my limbs all came to be about three months later after I had completely gone way over board in the other direction.

During my hot periods where I made it through detox and lasted a bit longer in stints to loose quick weight the remaining symptoms after being diagnosed fade away.

I've been seizure free for almost a year and a half now and have been anticonvulsant free for over a year thanks to following the advice of an incredible neurologist. B2 deficiency caused my brain to go haywire.

Needless to say I take incredible amounts of B2 and a multi vitamin.

Despite the amazing changes while on an incredibly sad diet I realized the break through migraines and occupation migraines will become a thing of the past.

I'm still scared. While I'm managing 50-60% now which is up from pickles and tomatoes on a bun with a burger and the occasional bag of romaine lettuce as a snack.

That's where I was was.

I look at the things I continued to do to myself and I nearly get lost in it. That self defeat comes rushing in and part of me that says you can't do it again because you've been so inept for so long almost wins.

I'm all in. I have to be. Sure there could be setbacks in the future but I am all in. Today I'm skipping out on my Greek yogurt. I have a peach and a smoothie waiting for me for breakfast.

I love celery. I'll probably eat an entire head of it today as well as raw pumpkin seeds and raw sunflower seeds as snacks throughout the day.

I have my lunch ready to go and when I get home instead of looking for instant, I'll whip up more walnut patte and dig in with some carrots. Who knows, I may find some almond butter while we're making our morning stop in I the way to work and bring it home to make hurry up almond milk. Definitely sounds good to me!

I can do this.

I think this is my Ninneveh. Get up and go, The Lord commander and Jonah ran. I'm determined to stop running.

Have a blessed day.