Ok. I really thought about things after my discussion with Bananna. :).
I've tried and tried to be 100% again. I would really love to be thin again. More than anyone here knows. But food and the enjoyment of it with my loved ones, family or friends.
I need to be free of the raw mind set. I've been hooked on it for 7 years now. This hasn't helped me.
I'm leaving for my own peace of mind and happiness. I adore the people on this forum and always come back because of them, but I'm making a firm break this time.
Take care (((hugs)))