ShelShel

Hi Shelshel!
Sorry I have been super busy the last couple of days!
I have been doing a lot of thinking and I would really like to be 'all raw'. ...mainly because I feel like a food addict and I think this would set a boundary up between me and being ridiculous, lol.

But then at some point I worry that it isn't practical and around and around I go. I need some friggin clarity.

I either need to:

a) Find a way to not be a food addict while still incorporating non-raw food.
or
b) Feel like raw is a practical thing for me to do.

...lately I have been leaning towards going raw, but I still feel like some very thoughtful cooked additions might be good. A baked sweet potato, some goat cheese in a restaurant, the odd boiled egg in my salad, some hummus sometimes, or some beans. I dunno.

I REALLY want to do raw though...I loved when I was all raw how easy my decision-making tree was...lol. Raw this, or raw that, always full of flavour, forced me to be creative and get good in the kitchen, the adventure of it and the abounding health and energy and weight loss....and how when you do anything for awhile, you crave it and can't imagine it any other way. I literally MISS it.

Thoughts?

Bananna, you and I have been two peas in the pod since the beginning. I am experiencing the exact same thing. :O crazy isn't it!?!?!?!

The problem for me is that when left alone I eat raw. When others are here I do not. I am unwilling to give up these precious moments shared with family and friends.

Just last night my hubby (completely unplanned) got off work and too me to one of our favorite restaurants. It was divine. I missed him and while others would say wet a salad, (which was my appetizer) it ruins the meal for him if that is all I eat. (and at this place my salad was the only raw option.).

I find I'm coming to this. I try to make healthy raw choices as often as I can. Exercise as often as I can. I feel great in my spirit for the good I'm doing and having balance, but... And here is why I keep trying to throw all that off... Without 100% I don't lose any of this extra weight. THAT is my struggle.

I could be very balanced and happy mind you at 60-70% raw weekends, 90% raw weekdays, but I will remain overweight. So I struggle.

I have no advice. Obviously. ;). But I'm right there with you. I struggle.

You are not alone. (((hugs)))

That is why I was considering bumping it up and getting the nicer tools. That it might somehow make it easier or more fun. More food options. More comfortable and less restrictive. Hummmmmmm. Lots of thoughts. :)

ok...been thinking. I think whatever the regimen, doing it for 30 days is going to make a huge difference. I can do anything for 30 days, lol. ...I just need to map out exactly what it is I am doing. The rawtarian's thing starts on monday, so I will start then...maybe not all raw, but maybe actually...maybe just one cheat meal a week or something, I dunno. But I think I need to make a 30 day commitment to break me out of this mold of circular spinning I am doing.
I need to get my health back...I have this pain in my armpit...it comes and goes...it's a cyst they tell me, but it's been a lot worse lately and has me a bit concerned and I'm actually afraid to go get it checked in case it's cancer. Which I know, makes no sense really at all, lol. Cystic breasts rarely turn into a cancerous situation, so it is most likely just being irritated. But either way/or, I need to eat better because it doesn't hurt or be problematic when I eat right.

Howse it going on your end?

there is so much to discuss within this one blog thread but the thing that jumps out at me is the comment that shel's husband doesn't enjoy a meal when shel eats raw. There is so much in this one situation that begs further analysis. Is it possible to do some talking through of this point between you?

Bananna, I think your idea to start with the goal of thirty days is a great one. Yes, I am always good when I get over the fourteen day mark. Good job!

Mystic tree, let me say for the record, my hubby is not the problem. He is so supportive. He told me to right out and by a vitamix, dehydrator and food processor so I would have what I need to be successful.

When I say he doesn't enjoy a meal if I'm eating raw. That is to say he can't have fun when my fun is limited. It is so much fun to share a meal saying things like, oh this is so good, want a bite? As opposed to yummy another salad. While he's eating a steak and potatoes.

It is different when we go out to simple places a salad is fine. But one of our fav places is a smokehouse restaurant. It is a little pointless to go out to a restaurant like that and have a side salad.

It is torture for me. He knows it and can't enjoy himself. I feel bad because I want to just eat and be merry. I love going out to eat. He knows me. He knows how difficult not eating what I want is.

That is all I meant be he can't enjoy himself when I am not also. He's wonderful. And nothing if not supportive. ;)

How can the smokehouse be a favourite place when both of you are miserable when you go there? If you really want to eat raw then you'll find a way to make it happen. Maybe raw isn't really what you want most?