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I am feeling really fatigued... tired body, weak muscles... last night I did eat cooked stuff after 4 or 5 days all raw. I'm not even really keeping track consciously, it's more a day-at-a-time thing because I want to avoid too much focus on food/diet.

I'm also reading a fascinating book, well 2 actually. The first is Michael Talbot's The Holographic Universe which has finally landed enough evidence in my lap that I best begin visualizations as a daily habit. It's amazing stuff, and pretty physics-y if you're into science books, though completely lay-person accessible.

One thing that struck me was an anecdote with Barbara Brennan and one of her clients (or else Carol Dryer and one of her clients). The guy had spleen troubles and apparently once had cursed out his spleen, forgot all about it, went on with life. This healer woman said oh your spleen... it's not happy... did you yell at your spleen?!? Buddy was surprised to say the least, and she went on about how we must never be harsh to these bodies or these organs, we must only send them positive messages..

This is mind-body-quantum to the max. Energy fields and vibrations as our true composition. It made me think how often I think negatively about my lower body, all the body fat I carry.. so I began last night by massaging coconut oil on my limbs and praising them... It's important to remember that my legs are strong and carry me miles around, that with them I have the freedom to hike and swim and climb mountains and they are very powerful. I haven't been very loving to my body, I've been constantly thinking about how disgusting I thought it was/looked. So I am making a conscious effort to change this behaviour/these beliefs.

This is a mistake I had fallen into before, thinking, if I can just be 100% raw everything will get better - I'll be thin and beautiful, have energy and confidence and my life will improve. Raw food is not a panacea & will not miraculously alter my life; unless I make other changes to my core beliefs and ways of thinking about and interacting with this body and this world.

I have also begun reading David Hawkins books, the Power Vs. Force (book 1 of the trilogy) and am eager to learn/practice the applied kinesiology techniques. It's fascinating stuff. Now I'm so grateful that I'm currently unemployed and subsisting on limited income, because I have time to read all these books and put into practice the ideas I get excited about :)

I'll be digging into a watermelon today. First of the year for me. I can't wait! I love fruit. Man do I love fruit ;)

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I have decided against a colonic, mostly because I cannot justify spending $80 for one session - seems a bit obscene to me. I decided to try a herbal detox cleanse program.. my limit was about $30 so I got this Wild Rose Herbal D-Tox formula that you do for 12 days. Anyone ever tried it before??? Sometimes I think these things are just a scam too, but since I have never tried one, won't judge until I experience it myself