Can you do it? Yes, you can!
Can you do it? Yes you can! (to the tune of Bob the builder)
That is a great motto. I actually got that stuck in my head today. You know when you get some dumb jingle in your head and you can't get it out? lol
Well, in this case it works. It is a true statement of fact. I am thinking constantly about how amazed I am that I have made it this far. I also know that IF "I" can do it, ANYONE can do it! I mean, I am a poster child for over eaters anonymous and for compulsive eaters. I have managed to conquer this demon called "lover of sad". I don't say by any means that I am cured. I just say that I have been able to put it in a cage and lock the key. All this done by my philosiphy of "one day at a time" which is not "MY" philosophy but one I have adopted and I hold on to tightly, because it is that which has given me the ability to make it. It took the pressure of having to fear making it an entire month with out failing. I knew that if I took it a day at a time, If I could get through today, I could try it again tomorrow. I was challenging myself to be strong just for one day. Of course, it doesn't happen with out the support of all you wonderful people that are there to hold the net when someone falls and/or jumps off the wagon. Or is very close to. lol No judgements, no harsh words, no negativity, just heartfelt support and an out stretched arm to help pick us up. This is so deep. Imagine the power this goup of people have, what we can do if we have each others support and dedication. It is amazing.
I was prepared again today. I had my usual mc drink. I feel it is very important to begin my day with this. It just helps to get me going mentally. I today, I didn't have time to eat anything but I took my salad with me I left for lunch today and I just parked under a tree and ate my salad I had. I was very satisfied. I had a palm size of left over purple cabage and I was chomping on it as if it were an apple. It satisfied my need to crunch on something. I felt satisfied. It was great.
I came home and sat down on my couch to do some work on my lap top. I felt so drained for some reason, I put my head back and just dozed off, I woke up hours later. lol. My tsh came back today. The level was 156 it was highlighted as "WAY off the charts" abnormal. Which means my thyroid levels are dangerously low. I am worried about it. I have been trying to over do the laver and seaweeds. I don't know how much I have to eat or how long I have to eat it for me to begin seeing a difference. I know it is taking it's toll on my eyesight. I am having a hard time seeing printing. I think I am going to take some synthroid 112 a day for awhile just to try to feel better as I research how to treat myself with raw alone. I just can't handle feeling so poorly physically. I do have to say, mentally I feel great. My attitude is amazingly great. I owe that totally to raw. I am going to listen to all my new family here and try to cure myself. I just can't wait because I am really afraid of continuing to go down hill and end up in the hospital. I have no money or insurance to go that route. Meanwhile, I shall keep on keeping on with this wonderful world of raw.