bit of a close call...
byon 05-25-2007 at 02:03 AM (746 Views)
It's night time - and most of you are asleep. It was a very interesting day today. Finally got some photos off my old computer and onto the new laptop so that I could post them in the 'RawbiesRawk group room' on the snapfish site.
I'm having a blast with that btw - I love seeing everyones pics!
today - I am at day 54... fiftyfour days raw.... been doin it a while now - so it's not like I'm new to all this. I think by now I have formed raw habits, raw patterns. I just realized - that's almost 60 days - almost 2 months RAW... what the heck... WHY am I having a problem Now?? after almost 60 days???
yet... today I was hungry. Positively HUNGRY. Of course it did not help that I really haven't been prepared lately - just sorta 'wingin' it. Picking every night on my spicy taco mix. Afternoon fare has basically been fruit - orange, banana, maybe a few flax seed crackers. Lazzzyyy... not fixing food or being prepared like I should be. hmmm...
so today - I kept thinking I would drive 20 minutes to the nearest hfs and get something to eat.... maybe something GaSp... vegan... (I was THAT hungry) I didn't want candy (yuck - never ate much candy b4 anyway. I didn't want meat or anything like that - but I DID want something substantial - like a pizza wrap or raw onion bread.. ) and of course - not having been 'on it' like I should... I have nothing like that prepared.
Even dh said to me just last night... 'honey - what's up with the dehydrator? you haven't fixed ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF TO EAT... what ARE you eating?"
I told him I had been picking on my taco mix stuff and he flipped out a bit - telling me I need to eat smart if I'm going to eat this way - I need to eat SMART - and stop picking at taco walnuts everyday.
Now Princess Natoli jes went thru this a bit. (wanting vegan stuff) Then she got surrounded by the Raw Angels Swat Team ! LOL!! (too cool btw!)
So - I managed to stave off the 'gotta go eat food demons' by delving into a bag of Raw trail mix I had picked up at the hfs last week. It was quite yummy, and helped greatly. but I'm afraid - I ate A LOT of it - like maybe half the bag over a period of say 3 hours. (almonds, raisins, sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds) Now that can't be good! I also had a gI'normous banana, and an orange this morning.
Then when I got off work - I fixed myself a pretty large lettuce wrap with -- yes - taco mix, avos, onion, cilantro, cashew sour creme and salsa. I sat down and ate it slowly and realized I was also feeling very tired.
My energy level came up after I ate which was good. Usually when I get off work - I'm so zapped I often fall asleep sitting there watching TV! But today -after I ate - I just felt more energized and even did some 'uncooking!'
I also made up a batch of flax seed crackers - with carrots and ginger, sunflower seeds and pumkin seeds - they're in the dehydrator right now.
I know -- I know !! I need to eat other things - but it's quick and easy and dh likes those for snacks while he's at work too - plus I had the flax seeds soaking already! But those won't be ready until late tomorrow.
So - I've got to figure out a game plan for tomorrow - seriously got to eat a nice huge -- beautiful salad.
So - RAwbies... Seriously kick my butt tomorrow if you don't hear that I"ve eaten a salad okay???
okay - I'm off to bed! zzzzzz....