byon 05-29-2011 at 12:41 AM (425 Views)
The next day, after my previous blogpost, I was raw all day. Somewhere near supper time I decided to have a cooked supper. ....it all started because I decided to combine sparkpeople's counting calories (which I have been dabbling in when not raw) and in doing so, I realized that by supper time I had already managed to eat 2000 calories. (thank-you delicious nut-butter Asian salad dressing and honey-garlic sauce!) ...well that threw me, and I felt anxious...and as previously stated, anxiety is my whole reason for comfort food! ...I did Think of doing EFT stuff....but I didn't do it. But I did think of doing it atleast, lol.
All in all though it was a very high raw day and not too bad. The next day, Friday, was not that great though, half good half bad.
So today I water fasted. ...I don't know what else to do at this point...I feel like an addict and am going to see if this can reset me. I have read that it can do that, but also that you can easily slip into old habits again after resuming eating. For now I am just doing a Lot of thinking. ...whenever I get uncomfortably hungry or get a bit of a headache, I lie down, close my eyes...maybe for 15 minutes. I find it really helps me carry on with the water fasting. Alot!
It's not the kind of thing you want to do with a full plate, but I did do plenty, took my kids to the park, made them supper even ;)
I'm going to continue water fasting untill I feel more sorted out. I am still struggling with what I even want my diet to be...on one hand I want to be all raw, but on the other hand only high raw and gluten/dairy free. And then I have this other hand that still wants to be able to have cheese and chocolate in moderation and maybe I should count calories to compensate for it. And then yet another hand who detests the idea of counting calories. And another hand who is willing to be fat and unhealthy so I can eat whatever the hell I want!!
Yes, MONKEY MIND!!!! That is so, exactly true!
So, I am water fasting because I am at a point where I just don't trust myself to do any other type of regimen. Plus I hear it's very good for endometriosis..and the weight loss might encourage me. Also, I think it gives me a lot of time to analyze my thoughts and hopefully sort out more about what I'm going to do Exactly when I do start eating again. My fear is that I only want to be high raw but that I won't be able to manage it.
This four-five days you speak of going gluten and dairy free (in my previous blogpost), I have noticed this also....maybe it's just a matter of getting to that place again and I could more easily maintain high raw.
Alright dudes...I need to sleep. Peace out