byon 02-17-2011 at 10:28 PM (335 Views)
Well, I know my last post said I had a ditch tour and was getting back on track the next day.
Ditch tour officially ends tomorrow.
For those of you who purposely eat cooked food, HOW do you do it? Are you always fighting it? Do you find it harder than just being all raw? ...do you just need to be a certain personality type?
I DID workout tonight though, so that's something. :) and I'm going to bed earlier than normal, my goal is 10pm. :) ...and I have some Lovely food lined up for tomorrow.
So not sure what this would be called frustratedly optimistic? lol...still hanging in there I guess.
I have set a goal of 60 pounds in 20 weeks which brings me to the first week of July or so when I start school in an actual building with real classmates, etc, not distance ed. It's very important to me to look and feel comfortable in my own skin. I don't really now. ...that is a healthy 3 pound/week loss too, so realistic especially if raw.
I think I'm going to have to go all raw...but I hate to be so dogmatic about it, but it seems if I give me an inch, I take from me a mile, lol. ...I still don't see myself sweating a vinegrette dressing in a restaurant though, or maybe even feta cheese on it...I don't know...maybe feta is a gateway drug though, hahaha!
I'm pretty confused and frustrated and actual a bit scared because I don't actually know what to do. I was mentioning to Shelshel in her post that maybe if I had some very foolproof guidelines to have one meal raw, say on a friday night, with no leftovers...or something...that I could swing it. Dare I invest in trying such a regime and possible derail myself another week getting back on track if it fails? ...it might be worth the one week of derailment just to find out.
Booo to being derailed for yet another week. That would make maybe 100 derailments it feels like, lol.