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I was having one of the most miserable days and I come on here and see this wonderful community of support and I just am totally feeling the love and the raw vibe

Yesterday was my birthday and I did end up having my favorite Thai food dish. I enjoyed it...didn't feel guilty, mostly, lol...made sure there was no left overs even though I was stuffed. I made myself a raw vegan key lime pie.

I gained back 2 of my first weeks 5 pounds that I lost, one from just being quite high fat/gourmet and 1 probably from the Thai eating and birthday eating/gourmet raw.

I am really struggling with schoolwork in that I hate writing papers and school in general lately. Like I actually resent it, lol! Terrible...but I just want to run and play and exercise and read fascinating books and so on...but I am almost done it now...the dreary distance ed portion of it and look forward to doing placements in the upcoming bridging program, which I Better get accepted to. (social work in case you're wondering)

Anyways...today.

Today I had:

A banana-choc smoothie, which being a former chocoholic, this has really been a nice buffer, I don't feel the need to run out and eat a chocolate bar but it's not much chocolate either so I don't feel like I'm running an addiction.

Lunch: Some flaxy type crackers with avo and tomato and s&p. I eat this a lot too but would like to switch it to a salad maybe...or something. I also had a piece of my key lime pie...am getting sick of the high fat thing though, lol. I need some juicy stuff!

I'm still trying to find a rhythm...but I think I'm ready to because I don't feel like I am just eating everything in sight raw, just to stay raw...like I'm ready to take it to a level that is more 'normal'....but just not sure what my normal is yet?

Supper: An apple. A very salty, too salty dill veggie dip thing I made out of sunflower seeds, with some greens (mache -a really nice green!) and celery sticks.

I also had maple syrup, the real stuff, straight up. What is that about? I was experiencing a low...what can I say.

I think it was a fairly hard day because of the weight gain and having cooked yesterday, but I did stay raw...well I know maple syrup isn't technically raw but is on the master cleanse so that's how I rationalize it.

Cheers guys,