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Wow, I’m at Day 5 and already it seems like I’m in the groove and wondering, “What have I been doing for so long?” Yeah, well, I’ve been living in oblivion for awhile now...and I feel like I just woke up from the longest nap EVER! It’s great to be awake and aware. I had simply forgotten how amazing and beautiful life can be without the haze of bad foods (fried, refined, meat, etc.) and too many late nights at the pub (hey bartender, I’ll have another).

Yesterday I made another green smoothie for lunch, but I used less fruit/juice than the previous night so it was definitely more GREEN tasting! Whew, a little like munching on lawnmower clippings - what I imagine that would taste like. Haha, but it was still quite good.

I'm amazed - 5 days and NO temptations whatsoever. But I don't want to get too high and mighty. It could come at any minute - a craving for bread or cheese...or something warm and comforting. I'll have to figure it out if/when the time comes.

I wore jeans and a simple, cotton short sleeved T-shirt to work yesterday!

And you’re thinking, “So what?” Hmmm, well, for me in my fat world it’s a big deal. Usually I do this elaborate layering thing with shirts and jackets to camouflage. I know I haven’t lost that much weight yet or anything, but I feel different. I don’t feel all puffy and bloated out like the Michelin Man. I feel more like my old self “inside” and somehow that translates to being just that little bit more comfortable in my own skin.

I don't think I can ever go back to eating SAD again! I mean on the one hand that thought is scary...it's like when did I make this decision to LEAP off the cliff? Then on the other hand, I have to remember, it's been a process. G4G (Lisa) asked me to do a vegan challenge back in Feb - and we've both been working very diligently and very hard to get to this point! And now, it's evolution - moving on to the next natural step. Couldn't be better, and when I frame it this way, it's really not so scary anymore.

What's scary is all of the middle aisles in a supermarket!

So this morning I had to get a little excited.....I wasn’t too sure about posting this detail on the blog because it's far too much of a "TMI"....but I had a great BM this morning. I had been pretty backed up since starting this journey on Saturday...and OMG today is Wednesday, I was beginning to worry. Well, I shouldn't worry anymore!

For kicks...I just had to...I stepped on the scale afterwards. I broke my own rule of only once a week. But hey, I was 209!

I haven't been below 210 since May of 2004!!!!!! I actually went back and checked my old weight logs. 3 years above 210 and TODAY the scale showed me a preview of the future.

I say PREVIEW because I know it will pop back over when I have breakfast...and I'm ok with this. Sure, I want to lose weight as fast as the next person...and, oh yeah, am I ever READY to unleash the thin person inside screaming to get out. There's just no more patience in me for the Fat Suit anymore.

However, I also want to be healthy and realistic. I mean I was 212 on Saturday morning, and now it’s 5 days later and I'm 209. That's 3 lbs in 5 days - I know that can't continue.

But for the moment, I'm happy and LIGHTER! ;)