Yeah!! (pat on back) I've made it to day 5!!
Ok, lets see yesterday I feel like I ate all day BUT.....It was ALL raw!!! I made a different variation of the salad I had made the night before. I just couldn't stop eating...my compulsion kicking in, but at least it was all raw and not all the drive throughs down the street. I am looking at the positive aspect of it. I need to buy a scale. I have not had a scale before because they depress me. Getting on one only to have it tell me "you are fat" lol not something I want to be reminded of. However, I have to change all my thinking process and look at it differently. I need to look it as simply a tool to help me know where I am and to help me see the progress (or lack of) I am making. Also I think I try to escape from accountability.. I need the scale to face that I am accountable for my progress and/or lack of. Problem here is I have to learn how to not beat myself up if I don't have progress and to be proud of myself for any progress. I have to remind myself everyday that it is a daily, hourly, minutely, and secondly (don't think those are words but..)For me they mean alot because it is an every second struggle. My compulsion has me thinking of food 24/7. This site and all the awesome people here are what are empowering me to keep going, to persevere and to just be happy to be proud of every little successes I have in my journey in the raw life. I love raw,I enjoy it. I also love everything else food. lol it's ok if I slip, I am going to strive to not slip just for today. Yesterday one of the hardest challenges for me is when I microwaved some chicken enchiladas for hubby. It could have gone the wrong way and I could have had at least one. I didn't...I am proud of myself for not, but that is why I kept eating my salad...I made it through that. I wish I didn't have to cook for him but it's ok. I can't shield myself from life. I have to face it. I feel lack of energy but I think it is just because I have not taken my thyroid medication in awhile. I need to get a job soon!
Ok, I'm off to the kitchen to get my left over salad..........
I ask God everyday to give me strength and power over my food choices...and I thank God for all the wonderful people that are helping me and pray that God helps everyone in the same boat as I am we all deserve good things..:)