byon 05-07-2007 at 11:23 AM (372 Views)
This is my 3rd day. Not full 3rd day as there were falls here and there. Yesterday was hard for me. I thought it was going to be smooth sailing. Dh called and asked if I wanted him to stop and get something for dinner. I said yeah...it would be great if he picked up a lettuce and stuff for a nice salad. He said ok... and then he comes home with whataburgers, onion rings and that was it. I did take the meat out. I ate the rest of it and the onion rings that he brought with it. I had planned to eat a salad. I told him I am determined to change my ways and he said it is not good to be vegetarian that I need protein. Instead of standing firm and finding a better choice. I ate it so not to dissappoint him. ok, fine. I will pick myself up and dust myself off. I ate some watermelon after dh went to bed. I stayed up late reading entries on this wonderful site. I think this is such a god send for me. I need so much support. I am such a naturally negative person. I need people to advise and support me. I am so quick to fall of the wagon on my own. It is typical for me to say "I blew it so let me go and eat". I sabatoge myself if others don't do it for me. I am my worst enemy. I don't know why.
Today...I have had a glass of warm water with lemon. I ate the lemon and am going to make it a good day. I am in between jobs so I am desperate to find something. Stress makes me eat. I am such a compulsive eater. I eat out of desperation and because it's what I know. I love to eat.