This is my Nineveh!
I know it's hard...
I know it's hard and that turning your back on cooked and fast food again is a hard choice to make. You and Dan love pasta, pizza and potatoes and I know that they're hard to give up. But don't forget why you gave them up in the first place. They were killing you.
You were always sick, always tired and always depressed and you're already battling that again. Why keep fighting the bad fight when it can be resolved with the good fight? Hell, why even fight at all?
Sure the caffeine headaches feel unbearable, but you're dealing with it. You didn't cut out all of the coffee and soda, but you cut out more than 2/3s of it. Did you realize how much diet coke and how many cups of coffee you were drinking a week ago? 4 cans plust a 2 liter of diet coke and so many trips to the coffee station you always felt like you were floating?
Breaking it down day by day is hard, but not unachievable and you know this.
Don't see giving in to 3 cans of soda as a failure but as an accomplishment! That's a drastic and dramatic step in the direction you want... and it only took a day.
And today, those 3 cans of soda at work, don't let those defeat you either. You're getting closer to none. You didn't even drink the coffee you made! That in itself is worth celebrating!
I know that you want to cry when you think of what you have to give up.
I know that you're still looking at all if it as losses and that you did cry this morning.
Instead of thinking about what you are loosing, think about what you have to gain!
Focus on the future! You and Barbie are planning to go to Lifetime Fitness on her 7 day guest pass. You're planning on joining so that you can work out with her once your lease is up. You're planning yoga and ... even considering training for a triathalon.. that takes a year and you're getting ready to commit to it.
Think about last night, you didn't play WOW. You don't have to stop, but you don't need to play it all of your waking ours and you've made the choice not to. I'm proud of you!
You're determined to regain your creativity not only are you listening to music that inspires you but you're planning, character sketching and writing about them and their lives to get into their heads. More positive steps forward!
Keep stepping forward and while you're at it, can that third can of soda, dump out your coffee and get yourself another glass of water.(done!)
With much love and hope,
and.... signed up for the local meetup/potluck on 2/27. Building a support network is a plus!