This is my Nineveh!

Dear Kit,

Your journey to this point in life has been a bumpy one, but who's life hasn't been. You've fought Poly Cystic Ovarian Disease, Diabetes, a head injury, high cholesterol and epileptic tendencies for years.

You've watched the world go through it's high points and low points and even fall apart around you.

You've watched your family suffer some of the greatest losses a family could ever experience, but it brought all of you together. You're still 'Kicking Holes for Zak D!' every day just by waking up and breathing.

You are loved, are in love, and even have a pair of puppies following you around calling you mom and an amazing boyfriend who is working hard to help you both be healthy.

A year ago you even made it raw for five months! You lost forty pounds, were labeled as cured of diabetes, stopped having seizures, your cholesterol normalized and you were running again and laughing and listening to music as you jogged up and down the road around your apartment.

So what happened?

You gained most of the weight back and your favorite jeans are fitting all too snug. You're eating pizza and spaghetti almost every day of the week. You're boyfriend and your puppies love you but you don't have the motivation to get out and get moving anymore.

You stopped writing....

Your creativity slipped away as you consumed more trainwrecks, more coffee, more soda, and fast food.

And now you feel like a drone at work, just pushing buttons. Pushing MOAR BUTTONS faster and faster to keep up with new quotas.

And you're having migraines, you're ticking.. and even this week you seized two days in a row.

Your body is tired and you feel the symptoms of increased blood sugar and aren't treating it through pharmaceuticals because going back to the doctor would be admitting failure and you certainly don't have the energy to exercise.

Exercise? Who needs that?

Kit you do! You love your life and your family so why are you choosing to let it waste away.

You love yourself, but you're fighting that niggling depression each and every day.

You know you don't have to be fatigued and you know that just sitting in front of the computer 'WoWing' away doesn't do much for your body.

So what are you waiting for! Kit I love you and it's time for you to start simple and take the steps back toward healthy and happy.

Today, Kit, you start simple because I love you.

No more coffee. Don't cringe! I know you want to... no more coffee. AND no more soda. We'll start simple with changing over from coffee and soda to warm tea and water. That's not too bad.

Lets do this for two weeks.

Lets see what happens.

We'll do it together!

Love always,

Kit


So, my starting point. This is where it all comes back to, the needing to make a decision to fight and live for health and laughter that comes from undoing it all.

I've done it twice and just like Dan said, he can't stop me from doing anything whether it's eating what I know I should or eating the carbohollics nightmares that so many people can survive on without any additional problems with their health. . . . me not so much.

Me, I'm a variable handbag of medical problems that I want to beat so that I can consider things like.. having children... running again.. jogging.. biking... redefine my creativity and find myself writing again. It can be done. I know it can be done. I've done it before! I can do it again!

So here's to an amazing day and starting it all over from the beginning.