~RawMamaSutra~

So ReRAw begins Wednesday with the new moon with my original goal of getting healthier feeling great and of course releasing a lot of weight in time for my 40th birthday!

the original amount I wanted to release was just a matter of health benfits, easier exercise/ play and so I could wear sensibly smaller clothes from the sales rack.

Well then I got this revelation that I could in fact stand to loose 99lbs

Granted if you knew me in real life you wouldn't believe it. I'm 6'2 with some of these lbs strategically hidden densely packed and well tall people honestly do hide excess lbs well.

But guess what??? At 99lbs overweight I do not wear a bikikni
I do not voluntarily take pics
and I no longer have fun shopping for myself, not even shoe shopping.

A 99Lb release will return me to a realistic weight, that I looked really good at and enjoyed after baby number 3 who is now 15 years old.

So it looks like at some point after departing my vegan diet in 1996 then departing my vegetarian diet around 1997 I pounded up a good 20 lbs. I'm aware of that point because I remember working in a fitness center and wanting to loose 20lbs and feeling oh so stuck. Then three years later I went in for a umbilicus hernia repair and found out I weighed over 200lbs for the first time in my life (while not pregnant). Mortified!!! Then stressed out from life I pounded up some more between then and the new milennium,. However, somewhere after 2000 I got busy in life and unconsciously lost a bit as I prepared myself for I high paced corporated sales gig.

My lowest then was still about 45lbs over my ideal, but I looked good, sexy hot etc....

So now here I sit 9 years and 2 more kiddos later 99lbs above sexy hot ideal and 65lbs above healthy and comfortable.

Me thinks I got some serious work to do, but I am oh so ready

Ready for more energized days as I rid myself of fatigue

Ready to have 3 BM's per day

Ready to be more mentally efficient

Ready to maximize my cellular healing, detoxing and regeneraion procesess

READY TO LIVE

Haven't released any lbs since the realization that I could undeniably stand to release 99. But I have gotten my mind right. I'm definately feel committed to the process, the lifestyle change, the commitment to my temple!

Rest yesterady, cleaning today and may even go shop for a new knife and cutting board

Gonna pull the dehydrator out and make out my famers market and whole foods grocery list.

From experience I know that I need a ton of live calories around for my first 10 days of RAW, especially avos and high fiber fruit,

Been eating 1000's of empty calories per day and lettuce just doesn't replace it.