A Little of This; A Little of That

This morning I awakened to an interesting awareness and that is that when we go out, I've not been eating as "cleanly" as I could be because I don't want to make it too difficult on my not-even-close-to-raw husband. You know what? That's total bs!!!

Whew! What the mind can do and how we can rationalize! Bo is ALWAYS accommodating to me. He'll take me wherever I want to go eat even if it means we eat in different places as we did yesterday. How cool is that?

Well, even so! We'll go some place where I can choose just fruit or a salad and, what do I do? I rationalize that I'm eating this or that cooked stuff "for him". Yeah, right.

What's really great is, this was all subconscious stuff and now that it's at the surface... I can handle it. Where it comes from originally? Don't know; don't care. It's definitely not about Him and/or pleasing Him as He loves pleasing me! (Well, I love pleasing Him too; just my health is MOST important!)

So, now that I'm clear on this.. began a smoozie drinking weekend. When He was out I called and asked if He'd bring home some bananas, which He did. Organic.

One thing my teacher has always said (well, at least for the almost 24 years I've know him) ~ At the end of the year, do more of what you want to do the following year.

For me, that's being in charge of my health! How that comes about is to stop letting that lil monkey mind be in charge and rationalizing when I don't work out; eat less than optimally; watch too many vids (already canceled Blockbuster subscription); balance our biz reading and novels; spend more time with Him playing rather than working... all KINDS of fun stuff!

So, that's my awareness. I've been SLACKEN' and, back on track. Will it derail again? I'm sure! It's o.k. though. I know how to get back on track; have the tools to do so; have the support here I need and want. Good-to-go!

Revvell
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