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So I had an appointment with my midwife yesterday and she never showed up. Never called. Nothing. This is not the first time this sort of thing has happened. As a matter of fact she has been late for all but one appointment that we have had. Now I am not anal and I think that I am pretty easy to get along with. I can forgive a bit of tardiness but we are talking 1-2 hours or more late for each appointment. This was the first time that she never showed up for an appointment though but it was the last straw. I had to really examine my feelings about her and realized that I do not care for her very much. I really just don't like her or feel comfortable around her. She is very aloof, cold and condescending. It is hard to put into words but every time she came over here I felt like she was critizing me and looking down at me. She would always make strange snide comments about my house or other things that was just offputting. She did not have a warm and friendly personality, she just came across as very superior and cool. But since we live in a state where it is illegal for midwives to assist woman at home my options are limited and I felt like I was stuck with her or doomed to a hospital birth, which I DO NOT want. Then I found one other midwife. I called her crying yesterday because I was just so upset and felt really trapped. She came right over last night for my hubby and I to interview her. Oh MY WHAT A DIFFERENCE! She was warm, friendly, and open. I felt like I could actually talk to her and laugh with her and feel comfortable around her to birth my baby. She stayed for over 2 hours talking with us and before she left she gave me a hug. So she was hired and the other midwife will be fired. And I feel much more comfortable and relaxed about the impending birth now. Did you hear that little baby? The coast is clear, you can come out now. lol!

Eating is going wonderfully. I tend to eat the same thing every day but I am perfectly happy with it and see no reason to alter my menu at this point. If it isn't broke why fix it, right? I tend to stick with simpler things anyways and just really enjoy simple delicious raw foods and my delicious salads.

So that is pretty much whats been going on over here. I still have a chance for an October baby if we do this quick. But my due date is not until Nov 3rd and almost all of my little ones have been late so I am not holding my breath. It would be nice though. :) My new midwife has one lady due soon who lives 2 hours away. As long as we do not go into labor at the same time all is good. Otherwise I am going to try doing an unassisted home birth. No hospitals for me.