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A couple of years ago I decided to do my first triathlon. I had been biking & swimming quite a bit, but was never much of a runner. I had a blast doing the triathlon, but I realized that if I wanted to do another one, I should start working more on running. So I started building up my endurance and I did a 5k, then a 10k, and then eventually worked my way up to a half marathon! I did the half marathon last June (so just over a year ago) and it was really hard, but it felt so good to say that I did it. After that, I took a break from running because I had been doing so much of it. Then this winter I gained a bunch of weight and then I felt like I couldn't run because of it. Now that I've lost 10 of those pounds, it's time to put the excuses aside and get back out there!

So today during lunch I'm going to go on my first run. It's too cold/rainy to go outside today, but I'm not going to let that stop me. I'll go to the gym and get on the treadmill instead. It's actually better that way because I don't have to determine a set distance to go - I can just see how my body feels and I'll be able to stop at any time.

This morning I had a smoothie with spinach, 1 banana, and a 1/2 pint of raspberries. For lunch I have a salad with chard, cherry tomatoes, cucumber, red pepper, celery and olives. I have some rainier cherries for a snack later.

In 15 minutes I have a meeting at work that I've been dreading. It's with two people who I have traditionally butted heads with. I am dealing with the situation without food though - I am not going to stuff my emotions! I'm going to confront the issue at hand and find resolution and move past this - it's gone on for 2 years now, way too long. It doesn't serve either party to have a relationship that is not effective. We all share a common goal of wanting to do what is best for the company, and we need to find a way to support each other in achieving that.

I'm going in to the meeting with the mindset of finding common ground rather than playing the blame game which doesn't help anything. I'm taking accountability for my end of the relationship - honestly, I've been resolved the past two years. I think to myself "that's just how they are, why should I bother trying to make it better, they are just stuck in their way, they don't care, etc." That line of thinking has not been helpful - it doesn't make the situation better, and it makes me feel crappy for not putting forth my best efforts. Rather than brushing it under the rug like I have been doing, I'm going to take a risk and put myself out there. It's scary...but I know I need to do something!