emotional detox, craving and family
byon 05-10-2009 at 01:24 PM (354 Views)
Yesterday i had a very intense experience. I was visiting my family and we were watching a film, when suddenly i started crying. It was instoppable, i just cried and cried, pouring down.
At first i had no idea why, and my family got really concerned, but then bang, it hit me.
An unprocessed memory of a terrible situation that occured exactly one year ago, that i had not thought about nor talked about since it happened. It all came up, and i talked and talked and got some wonderful support from my family (i feel so bad for talking about them as narrow minded in my last post..) and afterwards i felt lighter.
This memory has left me, all the anger i had is out, all the saddness. I feel free and i no longer need to occupy my mind trying to hold the memory back. Now i can relate to it as a memory, but it will no longer affect my daily life.
Onwards to now.
I'm right now experiencing a true craving for the first time in my life (see post in Raw Discussion). Interesting. I will not act on it, and i know i haven't missed out on any food groups today, so i'll be fine. But it's a very odd sensation. I know i am not hungry, yet my mind is screaming for these odd "comfort foods" that i never even had when i was on cooked.
I got an opportunit to spread the healing word today. A family member is down with (another) cold, and she has no idea why she keeps getting them. Well, i talked to her about trying to listen to her body and rest instead of work constantly. I went to her place and made her a big citrus juice (ruby grape, orange and lemon) and made green smoothis and put in her fridge, and told her to lie down, sleep and rest and try to eat as little as possible beside the smoothie and juice.
She also agreed to go sugar-free vegan for a week from now to help getting rid of whatever it is that keeps giving her these cold-symptoms.
Hopefully she will heal a little.