It's a done deal.
I was able to secure an out of district placement for one of my children with ASD/PTSD. I have been fighting this battle EVERY DAY since January. DCF became involved, they considered removing my other children, etc. etc. It has been very very stressful and of course, true to form, I gained 20+lbs (again). The danger here has been escalating, along with the stress, and workload of caring for him 24/7 and keeping my 3 other children safe from harm, but now there is light at the end of the tunnel. The school is only 30 min. from here and has a program based specifically for PDD kiddos. I had lost hope for awhile, but it is rumored that he will be settled in there in about a month. Of course I have very mixed feelings, but I am very happy that he will finally receive the treatment he had needed for so long.
I have put ME on hold for so long, that I have to find out who I am again. I feel like time and space and love are all opening up at the same time right now. New portals in my life are manifesting. I just have to find the courage to step over the threshold.
I will be back here ASAP. Just got to survive the next month or so and get him settled in.
Hallelujah. A prayer is answered.