who knew? it's okay to be hungry
Another one of my irrational/unneeded fears that I am releasing is a fear of hunger. So often I eat because I'm afraid to be hungry. I no longer need to do that. I went 5 days without food - if that doesn't prove that hunger is perfectly okay, then what does???
Often I think to myself:
"I'm going to XYZ and I don't know if there will be food for me, so I better eat now."
So I eat, and then I go to XYZ, and there is food,
I don't think to myself "I already ate so I don't need to eat now, even though there is food."
Nope, I just I eat again anyway even though my body does not need it.
What am I afraid of? So what if I get there and can't eat??? It's not like I'm stuck there forever. I can always just wait and eat later when I get home.
Or another example - I'll take food with me in my purse someplace "just in case I get hungry."
What happens? I don't actually get hungry, but I end up eating the food anyway unnecessarily.
Then I'll get home but I do not think to myself "since I already ate, I don't need to eat now."
Rather, I go ahead and eat a second time.
These are examples of things that I no longer need to do. It's okay that I did them in the past. I am not judging myself for acting this way. I simply realize now that I have other options. I am empowered with the option to allow myself to be hungry! That may sound weird, but I literally never used to allow myself to be hungry because I was afraid of it.
I associated hunger with mood swings, stomach pains & grumbling, light hotheadedness or headaches, etc. But that is because that was the "hunger" I experienced when I was actually "withdrawing" from cooked food. Now that I'm raw, I don't go into shock when I am in hunger. I am still able to function fully, and it is not an unpleasant feeling. So why be afraid?
Just a few minutes ago, I had my chia/blueberry/mango bowl and I was still hungry. The following is the thought process I went through, rather than going and finding more food:
"hmm...that bowl was pretty small so I'm not really that surprised that I am still feeling hungry.
it's okay that I'm hungry though because it means that it's going to be easy for my body to digest the food
I only have an hour left of work and then I can go home and have dinner
there is no reason I need anything right this second. It is easy for me to wait until I get home.
I'm going to focus on finishing up my work and this hour will pass by before I know it."