Jenifae's Raw Journey
Observations of Another "Treat Day" - LOL!
byon 03-26-2009 at 11:45 AM (450 Views)
I find it very Interesting that both my Husband and I view Treats as a Food. So, when we want to treat ourselves it's always with Food. I have also noticed some commercials lately are focusing in on selling their food product and the commercial is a scene where the family is eating SAD cookies and laughing and carrying on. It says something to the effect of spending "Quality time" with your family. Ha! That one was a Pilsbury commercial. But, another one was similar for a different food product. Why do we this? We are trained? We are taught by families, tv, society at large? All the above?
So, getting to my topic. Yesterday, I was doing great. I worked out and had a Banana and some strawberries w/some of my Breakfast Smoothie. I thought I was saving it for a base for a Green Smoothie which maybe I'll do today. Okay, I'm doing the ADD thing. Back on topic. So, we went down the hill for him to get nuts and bolts and I wanted to go with him. WHy? hahaha! He wanted to eat and I wasn't really hungry but, by the time he was ready I was a lil' hungry so, okay. He wanted mexican so, I got a salad w/guacamole and I only ate 1/2 which is pretty good for me lately. Here's the uh-oh! Starbucks was right there and I thought I'm tired of trying to be 100% and I'm not going to anymore. I'm just going to start allowing so, that I don't overeat when I do. So, a soy mocha is fine. So, I got that and then we started heading home and he wanted ice cream. I said okay. Why? Big mistake and I'll tell you why. First, I don't feel guilty. I Refuse to that anymore but, what I am doing is really paying attention to how I feel and more importantly the after effects. I enjoyed the ice cream. I did have one thought of the poor cows and pushed it aside. I let myself just enjoy the chocolatey goodness. I was fine for a few hours and by bedtime started feeling itchy and jumpy. I had a time going to sleep and was tossing and turning all nite. This morning I am not only "Hung Over" feeling but, I feel sick - nausceous!
So, my Observation of myself and what my learning experience is for myself is:
1. I believe I am Allergic to Chocolate and that is probably why I crave it so.
2. I beleive I am truely a Vegan at Heart. Dairy is Gross in my system.
So, if I need chocolate I'm better off sticking to Raw chocolate because, it doesnt give me the same affect. I just had an a-ha moment. "Probably because, raw doesnt have any dairy in it" A-Ha!
I Pray that I Recieve this Lesson Internally and hold onto it so, that I don't lie to myself later that I can have dairy w/out consequences.