daylight day 2
byon 03-04-2009 at 10:48 AM (377 Views)
I enjoyed my second day of successful daylight living :) I ate during the day while I was at work, and then I went to yoga on my way home. I was feeling a little weak minded and I thought that if I went straight home, I wouldn't be able to resist digging into the fridge. I get off work at 4:30 and the b-ball game wasn't until 8:00, so I needed something to fill that time space. It was a good decision - yoga felt great and when I got home, all I wanted was water.
The real challenge came when I started preparing food for today's lunch. I was chopping up fruits and veggies and I wanted to nibble on it. Not because I was hungry though, just because it looked & smelled so delicious. I told myself, "it will be just as delicious tomorrow so I don't need to have any now." I made it through without even so much as licking my fingers! I actually prepared lunch for the next two days so that I wouldn't have to go through the same mental torture tonight :)
Then my second challenge was later when my hubby cut up a pear and asked if I wanted to share it with him. I said no and tried not to think about how delicious it would be. Then he sat down next to me and started eating it and said, "wow, this is so good, are you sure you don't want any?" I almost died! First of all, the sweet smell was already driving me nuts and second of all, I was listening to him eating which was also driving me nuts. It was all I could do not to snap at him. None of which is his fault of course, but I was feeling so irritated (not with him, with the situation). I politely said "I'm not snacking in the evenings right now so I would appreciate you not offering me any food." He understood and dropped it after that.
Looking back on it, while it seemed really difficult at the time - I realize the whole struggle probably only lasted 3-5 minutes. Pushing through that short bit of time was definitely worth the rewards that I'm feeling today. I slept well, my spirits and confidence are high, and I'm proud of myself!