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Wow. I fasted for seven weeks. I have really mixed feelings about breaking the fast. I know that I need to now that I am pregnant. But I will miss it, I enjoyed it so much.

I also want to make sure that I keep my eating under control. I have lost 40 pounds and I would like to keep it off. I still need to lose a good 40 pounds to get to a good weight for me. Now I realize that being pregnant my focus should not be on losing weight, however I am still technically "obese" due to being vertically challenged. I would not mind losing another ten pounds and then maintaining through the pregnancy. Like I said, I still have lots of weight to lose. But the focus is to eat raw, eat healthy, have a good healthy raw pregnancy and an awesome birth.

Which brings me to my next point. I am so stinkin mad right now. I have had 5 hospital births and then our last little miracle was born at home (on purpose) and it was the most amazing and incredible experience ever. I told hubby that I do not ever want to go to a hospital again to have a baby. So today I looked into trying to find a home birth midwife in Illinois or Missouri to talk with. I am still not sure which state we are going to be moving to but I like to be prepared.

Imagine my shock when I discovered that both states are very home birth negative and the midwives have to work underground for fear of persecution and legal actions. I was so MAD! TICKED really. I mean, who are they to tell ME what I can and can not do??? If I choose to have my baby in my home in the safest and healthiest, loving and natural environment how is that ANY of THEIR business???!!! Really? Even if you do not agree with doing it this way how can they tell everyone else that they can not do it either? I'm not about to step into THIER business and tell them that THEY HAVE TO have a home birth. How stupid!!!! I thought we lived in a FREE country. I am SO MAD! Can you tell?

Ok, calming down now. So I am in the process of tracking down underground midwives to talk with.

And I have eaten. I did in fact break my fast. This morning I had some soaked prunes. They were ok. It felt weird to eat. Later I made some tomato/celery juice. That was good too, but really needed the red peppers to make it super awesome. Tonight I will probably have a couple oranges for dinner and thats it. I am trying to take it easy and see how my tummy does. I ususally don't have a problem breaking a fast, but I have never fasted for so long before. I also don't want to get into the habit of having a lot of prepared foods or snacking a lot. I want to try and keep it simple.

OK, long enough now, thanks for reading! :)