Jenifae's Raw Journey
Made a Decision
byon 03-03-2009 at 01:14 AM (519 Views)
I have been working at RAW since, last year this month on the 22nd. ALmost a year now. So, I guess I'm feeling like I'm tired of struggling with myself and food. I have noticed that when I am RAW 100% I feel Incredible and when I am not 100% Raw I don't feel the same. In fact aside from the feelings of guilt and remorse, I feel tired and lazy, so my energy is lower, sometimes my stomach hurts, I can and will feel itchy, bitchy, and jumpy, my eyes will have a glaze, I can get a rash and/or bumps. In General I Feel Bad - Emotionally, Physically, and Mentally when I let even small portions of SAD in.
I am praying that I can really get this Deal. I'm Sick and Tired of feeling Sick and Tired and want to Be and Feel Better! So, I am really looking at this like every other Addiction. One is Too Many and a Thousand is never Enough. So, Abstinence is the only cure that I know of. I want to be sure that I release all of my reservations about SAD especially when it comes to sugar. Amazingly, SAD sugar is Poisen. SO, why do I want Poisen? I really don't.
Today I ate more then I wanted too but, it was all RAW except for 1 cup of coffee. I've been drinking a cup everyday for a week. So, I"m DONE! I got some black tea to assist me in kicking the coffee. I have noticed that i have been more irritable from the coffee and not as paitent with everyone including my sweet unconditionally loving animals.
Today, we went to see a Bankruptcy lawyer and she should really be a DA. She is not empathetic at all and should not be a bankruptcy lawyer. We are not investigating bankruptcy because, we don't want to pay any of our creditors - we are trying not to sink. She seemed almost angry and would not give us all information we wanted. She refused and said we can research it. What? We knew most of what she did share with us because, DH researched it. So, we are still trying to decide and figure what we can do and what is best to do.
That being said.......I think I am not surprised that I've been overeating and eating SAD.
So, I am deciding to make a Strong decision to Be RAw! I want to remind myself everyday of how Sad makes me feel and to keep it simple and work on eating normally.
PS: Oh, so I did start to nibble on DH's muffin when we got back in the car from the BR Lawyer. Huh, no surprise. I caught myself and said STOP!