I get it!
I was having a hard time with the MC. Having horrible cravings and such. so i went for a drive alone. On my drive I started to think about my obsession with food and why i feel like i'm missing out on something when i'm not eating my fave fatty foods. I believe that i've figured it all out. Yes, i feel like i'm missing out on food and that i think i just HAVE to have, but more importantly, that food that i use to eat now has me missing out on my life. I cant dress the way i want to dress or take the stairs without a problem or even wear my hair in certain ways because i just couldnt miss out on this great tasting fatty foods. So I had to ask myself what was more important to me. Eating this unhealthy food that is sure to make me not only depressed but could possible take me to an early grave or change my way of eating so i can feel, look and be healthier. The choice is pretty simple for me. I want to be healthy.