BeFree2009

As of this past week I've noticed not only more amazing transformations in my physical appearance and my energy levels from being predominately raw for the past 2+ weeks. Yet, I've also noticed my self confidence has came out of NO WHERE! Now, keep in mind I was a chubby gal growing up, so shy that I would NEVER even raise my hand in school. Ever! I mean all the way thru high school. Though I leaned out a bit and became "in" with the "in crowd" I did NOT want or LIKE the attention.

Long story short, is that even forcing myself into situations that I knew would help me overcome my shy shell like going into the Navy, and then about 5 years ago becoming a group fitness instructor, up til even NOW I held onto the idea of not being GOOD or AS GOOD as other instructors.

I've been teaching Zumba (latin/international dance fused with fitness moves) for almost 2 years now and was always so insecure (even though up infront of the class) about being GOOD ENOUGH. Regardless, of people telling me I'm talented, regardless of the amount of people that showed up (which I always felt wasn't enough compared to hearing the statistics of other gals class sizes.) And so, certainly my own insecurity ATTRACTED = less students.

This past week or two I've had my classes SO FULL to the MAX capacity that at one location we had to turn people away because there wasn't any more room left to accomodate them! Now I almost fell over when I found this out after the class that night. Don't get me wrong there were alot of people in the class, the energy was rocking! But WOW! Turning people away at the front desk?!

Something within me has shifted, my mental clarity and my energy being so heightened has broken free of an old prison I was once confined in (old beliefs about who I am = not good enough.) I have finally realized that I love teaching, I love sharing who I am, my energy, etc., and people gravitate to me because of it.

My classes are packed with students now, NEW students that I've never seen before and the "regulars" are STILL there also. I've had to add another class on schedule at a location I've been at for over a year now due to high demand. I also had sub'd for a gal earlier this month at a new location, and the members there enjoyed me so much that they begged the owner to put me on the schedule. Next thing I knew I've got 2 more nights of Zumba added to my schedule! :)

Today was another eye opener: I've always told myself "ugggh I just am no good at creating MY own choreography!" (Even though the songs I have done in my routine/classes that have been my original choreo have always been favs of the students..geeze Laura get a clue!) :) So, today am driving & listening to the songs that I've been beating my head up against wall that I love & want to put into my class...as I'm listening out of nowhere I come up with choreography for the 2 songs! I'm jotting down notes as I'm driving as to not forget by the time I get home to run into my basement to dance them out in my studio! :) WOW!

I've also noticed that I'm not intimidated or feeling insecure about being more expressive in my dancing. I've always felt self conscious in being "too sexy" & dancing how I really want to, or that I'd intimidate the women in my class. So instead I have chosen to deflect by being cute or just sassy, never seductive or sexy. These past couple of weeks, I've allowed myself to "Be free" and be IN the music, to enjoy it, and not be so preoccupied with what others may think. How free'g it has been!

These mental breakthroughs are just amazing me in every minute and I can only attribute it to the shifting of my diet to 90% raw & green smoothies. It's like a fog has been lifted, my mind is so creative, so free, so energized...it's almost a "high" feeling.

Am closing now to go read my new book that arrived in mail "The Sunfood Diet" ...life is a beautiful gift.