Vaclare79

In some ways I think raw has helped me.. Mentally, lately I haven't had depression/anxiety as bad as I normally do. I've had some upsetting moments lately. Not doing well in school, met a guy who I thought I liked and met him a couple times. When I invited him over last night it was disappointing after he told me that he didn't mind coming to see me at my parent's house that he wasn't comfortable hanging with me there. So, I found somewhere ( a friend's ) to go to hang out and invited him to see me there and he still turn me down. I'm used to getting his texts in mornings where he tells me good morning beautiful. He didn't send one this morning. So, I don't know if I should even text or call him right now. I always have such bad luck picking out the wrong men for me I guess. I really liked talking to him, but probably going to have to be friends instead.
I didn't blow up or let it hold me back from having fun with friends last night and I noticed that it didn't bother me as bad last night as it normally would have if I were on the sad diet. I don't know if it's because of what I'm eating because my moods aren't as severe I THINK.
My younger brother is coming to visit today from FL which haven't seen him since last year sometime. Will be nice to see my baby brother!! Glad he's on his way right now home. He is freezing with no heat in the car driving from FL he probably also didn't put on clothes that were warm enough for our weather. Well, I'm eating the same old shit every day. I need variety but I haven't changed anything or tried any recipes yet. Been pretty much eating simply, wash cut and eat. I've got so much stuff for school to do right now and I need to do it this weekend and I don't feel much like doing it, but I guess I will since gotta get it done for a grade! :) I'm such a procrastinator when comes to assignments for school !! Wish I were more together although I think once I get myself straight with raw I will have more energy and be more clear minded so I can think of what needs to get done.
Our weather has been freezing cold which is unusual for November and snowing here yesterday. It was weird. It's almost 12pm and I've been lazy enough not to get up and eat today. There are some hard things about eating all raw foods, shopping everyday for fresh foods which I need to buy in bulk instead. It's driving me crazy going out shopping all the time. I'm glad I don't go out to eat anymore, spending the money and eating food that might have been rotten or have bugs in it etc.. I just hope I can get over my anxiety with raw. I hate having anxiety attacks. I've missed school a few times because of it.. It sucks. Also, I'm afraid to eat or try certain foods because of anxiety.